M. Aline

How often do we neglect God’s touch when we’re going through a season? I was thinking about this yesterday and today.

I tend to go through the motions more than I like to admit. I have yet to overcome my fear of breaking down and falling to my knees before the Lord and not feeling embarrassed by those who witness it. It’s not a place I want to be and I’m working to get myself out of that place. But as I stood there Sunday, I shoved down my urge to breakdown. I stood there with my hands lifted, but I wasn’t feeling the Spirit of God because I had pushed away the emotion wanting to surface. I felt stupid for standing there. And then I felt a tap on my shoulder. Nobody had touched me. Another tap on my shoulder. I disregarded it and went about the rest of my day.

I’ve thought about that moment since. Tonight, I should’ve been on my knees at the altar, but ignored the urge. After service, I began to realize my priorities still aren’t in the right place and if I ever want to get out of that place, I’m going to have to step out of my comfort zone.

I have neglected the touch of God in a season that I’ve needed Him the most. I often wonder why I’m still going through some of the trials I’m going through or dealing with the same issues and it’s because of comfortability and what I’ve chosen to prioritize. Maybe I’ve come to prioritize time because it seems like life is flying by and I can’t seem to catch a breath quick enough for the next thing. I know that I need to be prayed through certain issues and yet, I’m afraid of living life without those issues because I’ve dealt with them for so long. I know who is the solution, but I struggle with trusting Him. I read my Bible daily, but that doesn’t mean I don’t struggle.

I’m building my faith one day at a time, and I know this season will pass. But I also know there are certain things only He can take away, and I need to be at that altar before Him. The only way I can move forward and live a life that is full and prosperous, peaceful and joyous, is to fully surrender it all to Him and turn away from it.

We can’t afford to neglect His touch in a time like this. From someone who has and knows the emptiness that follows from not leaning in…if what you’re going through is reoccurring, take a look at your priorities. You may not realize it, but your priorities may not be in the right place. Even the slightest bit of change makes a difference.